Aza Aza* Fighting! - Mirai’s Bizarre Area, ‘未来’ 的 異想世界, My MBA

Listening to 1 of the songs in Secret (Jay’s movie). The song named Secret. When the girl playing it in the room, she able to travel in the future & past. I was wondering, if I able to do so, where/when do I wanna go?

It reminds me my favor movie – Love Letter.

This movie is boring and people keeps complains to me they need to watch few times to understand. Yup. It is boring. But I enjoy watching it. I feel very touch when the last scene of the movie show the girl in the movie turn to aged 20+ then only found out a secret/message that a boy hiding at the back of a library card since primary school. But it is too late. The guy met an accident and die few years ago.

A message / present that come late could change everything. It did happen to me.

I remembered when I was in college, I back home from college and open my house mail box and there was a mail for me. I am not surprise to receive mail as at that time I was still keep in touch with my primary classmates / friends through writing letter and send by normal post. But this mail is a bit “outstanding”. Because it is dirty. The envelope from white turn into yellowish. I wonder where did this letter from. It sure from a very far place as it is so dirty.

Then I turn to the back to see who is sender. It really made me surprise. Then I immediately opened the letter. It is a card. A very cute card. A card with a Japanese cartoon on its cover. Then I read on the content. It even made me blur / wondering what the “DOT” this person want to talk about. It is just some simply greeting, a normal message, a reminder on an appointment. But I can’t understand the content as I dun remembered there is an appointment with this person.

After I have scratching my head for awhile, I finally know what this person was talking about. I remembered the appointment was made few years back when I just started my school life in secondary school – form 1.

Then I only knew why this card is so dirty. It takes about 6/7 years to reach me. But it is really too late. I know if it reaches that time 6/7 ago, everything will change. Taking this card on my hand is really making me dunno how to react… i cried & smile. I tot those scenes only happen in Korean movie.

I decided not to tell this person this coz it is too late. Nothing will change.

**Sun**

            Yesterday I accompanied Pek Khee to genting to see her favor band showcase – FIR. As you know, 2 of the members from this band already admitted they are in love. So when they were saying their love song “3 wishes” it really made all the people in the arena feel their love… So so so sweet.

(Someone says “When I repeat to say it 3 times that’s mean I really mean it.”)

            At that moment I really wish I can be like them – sing this song with someone… hahahaha… think too much. But this is a really sweet song. Especially it sang by FIR who is the real couple. So it is really sweet.

3 wishes

(Real )I like the gentle and dangerous expression in your eyes

Please don’t put on glasses because I won’t b able to see them

Want to hold your treasure in open hands

Think and you will see that you want to take a trip around the world every day

( Faye ) I like how you love flaunting your stupid smiling face

You quickly raise your head to hold your beliefs close to your heart

This vast world is not perfect enough

But having you by my side makes everything ‘ok’

( Chorus ) Wish one : Wanna accumulate all the love to you

Arriving at the end of the world with you. Even your hair & your breath also can smell the happiness

One wish down, gave you the best of me

Allowing another wish will capture my love

( Real ) Why do small things make you cry

Seems like there are lots of things you have to bear by yourself

Actually, you only need to say one word : ‘ok’

Now you will change into your Superman straightaway

( Faye ) In this life the most imporant things are not only promises

Only want you to remember well my face

I’ll always be able to remember this day

And for a long time that day I also want to have your company

<object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6HzgUAuUOt0&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6HzgUAuUOt0&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object>

     This song reminds me on the coming valentine day. I still remember I spent my last few years valentine day with my close friends. The same gang as all of us is single. Then this year, 1 of them is not going to celebrate this day with us as she is not single anymore!!! Congratulation. We are so glad for her. Then my another friend warn me, “Dun let me see you this year on valentine day!!!” Then I only replied him, “Eh… I also dun hope to see u on valentine day… but no choice!!! Hahaha…”

            I also wish I could sell my before 14^th of Feb. But sorry lor. It is only about 1 month to go. Too rush manz… I rather play mahjong on 14^th of Feb kekeke… Or sing the song to Bobby. Hahaha…

Wishing every1 feel happiness everyday when listening to this song. J

            Yesterday I accompanied Pek Khee to genting to see her favor band showcase – FIR. As you know, 2 of the members from this band already admitted they are in love. So when they were saying their love song “3 wishes” it really made all the people in the arena feel their love… So so so sweet.

(Someone says “When I repeat to say it 3 times that’s mean I really mean it.”)

            At that moment I really wish I can be like them – sing this song with someone… hahahaha… think too much. But this is a really sweet song. Especially it sang by FIR who is the real couple. So it is really sweet.

3 wishes

(Real )I like the gentle and dangerous expression in your eyes

Please don’t put on glasses because I won’t b able to see them

Want to hold your treasure in open hands

Think and you will see that you want to take a trip around the world every day

( Faye ) I like how you love flaunting your stupid smiling face

You quickly raise your head to hold your beliefs close to your heart

This vast world is not perfect enough

But having you by my side makes everything ‘ok’

( Chorus ) Wish one : act to hold onto your happiness

Then arriving at the end of the world you can let your hair out

One wish down, gave you the best of myself

Allowing another wish will capture my love

( Real ) Why do small things make you cry

Seems like there are lots of things you have to bear by yourself

Actually, you only need to say one word : ‘ok’

Now you will change into your Superman straightaway

( Faye ) In this life the most imporant things are not only promises

Only want you to remember well my face

I’ll always be able to remember this day

And for a long time that day I also want to have your company

<object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6HzgUAuUOt0&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6HzgUAuUOt0&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object>

     This song reminds me on the coming valentine day. I still remember I spent my last few years valentine day with my close friends. The same gang as all of us is single. Then this year, 1 of them is not going to celebrate this day with us as she is not single anymore!!! Congratulation. We are so glad for her. Then my another friend warn me, “Dun let me see you this year on valentine day!!!” Then I only replied him, “Eh… I also dun hope to see u on valentine day… but no choice!!! Hahaha…”

            I also wish I could sell my before 14^th of Feb. But sorry lor. It is only about 1 month to go. Too rush manz… I rather play mahjong on 14^th of Feb kekeke… Or sing the song to Bobby. Hahaha…

Wishing every1 feel happiness everyday when listening to this song. J

When the New Year has come, everyone tend to make their life different with last year. Obviously we all want to be better than before. Then we start to think about our value.

I also think of that. I think of, what I have done, what is my can i do and what is my value in others’ eye. Then at the end, I found nothing interesting and no conclusion…

But I have a quite happy & satisfied New Year celebration as I can have it with my best friends and my Bobby together … It is simple but good enough for me, although it is tiring to hold the dog along the Jalan Ampang!!! But nevermind, as long as the dog has fun. (Bobby: Yup, it is fun but also scaring + tiring as I was scared by the fireworks. And somemore don’t allow me to eat… Erh…). Eh… Speechless…

**sun**

I am…

When there is 1 person told you, “you are really ….” It doesn’t mean what the person said is right. But if there is another person told you the same thing then they really mean it.

In last week, there were 2 persons who don’t know each other have use differ term but with same meaning to describe me.

            Scenario 1: On last few weeks, I was chit-chatting with my classmates & teacher when we were waiting for our turn to perform. Then we talked about our background, our family, our employment… After I have talked about myself, then suddenly “someone” said to me, “No wonder you’re so weird.” I was like “HAR???!! Weird? You also not really better than me!!!” 

            Scenario 2: One day when I was reading a magazine, the editor recommended a book and the book is about how to improve our inner beauty. As the magazine shows this book is available in Popular so I just immediately call out to my friend and asked him to buy for me with staff price (hehehe… cheaper mah). After I told him this then he said, “Har? You already so different like an object from the space (he means “alien” in a better term), no need to buy it.”  I was like, Alien??!!! Ok, alien, maybe there is beautiful alien (just to comfort myself).

I am not sure what they really mean. But I know they said it without bad intention. Just spontaneous reaction. But I really hope it doesn’t mean something bad… kekekeke… 

The value of a girl

That day when I was chit-chatting with friends and suddenly this topic was brought up. Well, we define the value of a girl in term of 2 different life stages – single & married.

Before this I thought the value of a girl will be increased once we get married. Then my friend told me, “No… the value is decrease after married.” I was like… Har? Why decrease? Not because of we get married then our value is increased as we now got the love from husband meh?? Well, they perceived the value is decreased as you belong to 1 man only after married and the other men won’t crazy for you anymore. Wow… quite true also. Some more your husband may sometimes feel irritating also as they can’t see other girls and feel bored to see you only… Hahaha… well, sometimes we have to lose something when we got something.

Well, I understand that no matter how we debate I also can’t give a clear theory that “Being single has more value” or “being married has more value.” I just know no matter being single or married, being a girl always has to ready for adding value on self. So being a girl is really tiring. No matter in term of behavior, attitude, appearance, inner beauty or knowledge/intelligence, always has to be perfect and improving from time to time. Some writers said doing all of these is just to please the guy. OMG. No way. V should do it for ourselves. It is because the guy doesn’t know how to appreciate us so at least we have to appreciate ourselves.

So girls, please be good to yourself. Ok? I mean improving yourself but not acting fake. Both of them may not have much difference but it differ naturally with your intention.

**Sun**

The song that i listen recently…

浦公英的約定‏ by Jay

小學籬芭旁的蒲公英　是記憶裡有味道的風景午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音　多少年後也還是很好聽 將願望折紙飛機寄成信　因為我們等不到那流星認真投決定命運的硬幣　卻不知道到底能去哪裡

一起長大的約定　那樣清晰　打過勾的我相信

說好要一起旅行　是妳如今　唯一堅持的任性

在走廊上罰站打手心　我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓我去到哪裡妳都跟很緊　很多的夢在等待著進行

一起長大的約定　那樣真心　與妳聊不完的曾經而我已經分不清　妳是友情　還是錯過的愛情

**sun**

Working OT …

Last 2 weeks were very tired until i asked myself why i need to make myself so tired.

There is a project that i need to work late on Friday night till 1am and Saturday from 11am to 1am continously for 2 weekends. It is really tired for me as i need to go few places in a day while feeling pressure in working on site. Back home already 2am and after bath almost 3am. Then wake up on Sunday morning at 9am to attend class. Every week the teacher also will ask me the same question and tell me the same thing when we leave. On the morning, he will ask: Have you practice during the week? Then my answer is “No.” When the class end, he will say to me, “Remember to practice.” Kekeke. But i got sick during these 2 weeks. It is because the weather is weird recently. Rain & feeling cool. I like Sun. But there is no Sunshine out there… I get flu till feel headache, cough until the whole day no voice. Haih… take care every1.

A pack from somewhere over the rainbow…

I received a pack from two of my best friends. They are so nice. They bought many things and put in a box and deliver thru mail to me. It is so excited to open the pack and take out the things one by one. There are 2 necklance, 2 earing, 2 shirts, 1 doll, 1 hp accessories, choco, chips, picture & card….

I like the red heart necklance most and also the KP chips. Hehehe, it is cheap chips but with a lot of good memory as i have eaten a lot of this chips.

Thank you so much. I feel so happy not because of i got a lot of things. It is because i feel like i am pampered & know that my friends appreciate me. I like to buy present to others maybe sometimes even buy more to others than i buy for myself. Buying present to others to someone you mind is happier than you buy things for yourself. Giving present to friends is to show that i am appreciating you and feel good to have you as my friends. That is why i quite enjoy to put effort to choose present and wrap it so nicely by myself. When you see the present looks nice, you will feel sooo satisfied. Hehehe… but sometimes it doesn’t mean the person who receive it will appreciate it or like it…. (OMG, why i think so negatively… unlike me… haih…)

A baby

AH… so nice to visit Ally & her baby. That day when i saw her i really feel like… Oh, a mother. The way she treat the baby so softly really making me… OH… she changed from a girl to a mother.

She shared her experience in giving birth with us. The process of giving birth is so smoothly as from the time she feel very pain till deliver the baby only need less than 2 hours. But the funniest is at the earlier stage, she dunno the light pain she experienced is the signal of reaching the deliver time. She said the light pain is like gastric + period pain. She tot it is just a normal pain so she dunno it is time to deliver. Kekeke…

When i saw the baby i feel a bit, unbelievable… i wonder, why there is a baby? I really can’t believe it is from a woman body. He is quite big eh and a human… OMG. During the visit, most of my time spent on looking at him. To see how he sleeps, how he moves, how he breath. I wonder … how come he is something can move, can breath, got expression. Haih… there are too many things that this universal cannot explain. I also wonder if we are here, then it must be other unknown object that moving at somewhere at the universal. But it is a good experience for to see a new life come into this world. There are too many unpredictable things & story that he is going to experience. Everything start from 0. But i believe there are always something good is waiting for him to face, to experience. I also believe when the time we born, the god has given us a road with a lot of beautiful things. For me, 1 of the good thing is i able to meet you in my life.

**sun**

So long didn’t write blog already. Let me have few sub blog here to record what happened recently la.

“London bridge is falling down…”

- No worry. London bridge is not fall down. The one who fall down is me. Hahaha. That day i was quite in good mood as finally the works were finished and i able to leave office while the sun was still there with me. Then walk walk walk to LRT station near my office with my high heel then blak… hahaha… the result of being careless. The place i fall down is just beside a main road, a lot of car was passing by but no pedestrian. When i fall down, my first response is  … While i was still thinking what expression should i give, should i cry or… then i only remember i should stand up quickly. Hahaha… I really slow in reaction. But i think it is quite funny experience as so long time never fall down. Hahaha. My colleagues are also funny. When i told them this on the next day, one was asking me did i got injured, and another one concern on how is the look when i fall as i was wearing skirt. But i told her no worry coz i fall to front but not fall to back… kekeke…

“Single woman is getting stronger” -

I have met some new friends from my violin class. We are from very different background. I think the student from this class are amazing & cute. It reminds me a Japanese drama. The student from different background and having very very very different life stories. There are 7 students & 1 teacher in my violin class and Now… i am going to introduce them to you…

1st – A primary school student –He is a primary school student who his parent send him to study violin, piano and other class (a typical current primary school student). He learns the theoritical part faster than us as we are older… hahahaha

2nd - A college student – my closest friend in the class – She is a beautiful girl with big eyes. From Penang. She not only beautiful in term of appearance but also her heart as she did a lot of volunteers. Although we just know each other for few weeks and only met once a week, but we share a lot & talk about a lot of things especially the guys around. We talked about the guy we admired and the guys that admired us. She is more brave than me when it comes to relationship as she is the one who take action in producing more opportunities with the guy she admired. She keeps on asking me to fight for it then i was like… Hahaha… i have tried so so so hard and being rejected so so so hard, and now i am tired. Who cares, just let it be…!!!

3th & 4th - Then 2 of my classmates are teachers from a primary school and another is teacher from private secondary school. Both of them NOW is single. One of them used to get marry and currently is having 2 children. Even they are about 10 – 15 years older than us, but we don’t have much gap. We did have meal together after class and i really found everyone of us is having our own life story ( i dun think i should disclose the life story of others in details at here). They share their life with 2 of us as we are younger and they keep asking us not to give up any chances and be smart when dealing with relationship. HOh, i really found woman nowadays are really stronger than man. Where is the real man? Haih… useless man a lot.

5th - Another classmate is a 30-40 y/o China female that come to Malaysia to continue her PHD. She always come late and busy in attending different class. Quite cute.

6th - The last classmate is a typical 30-40y/o white collar man who has a family and his wife is going to give birth on Dec. He looks very chinese educated man who wearing spec, quite tall and thin, speak softly, always smile, very polite, and clean his violin often.

7th – The 7th is me. I am the naughty student in the class. Always speak a lot, laugh loud and always against & question what the teacher said. I am always the one who reach there earliest but i am also the one who didn’t practise at home and the sound of violin i play is running out of range… hahaha… But i am the one who get the highest score (in term of subjective question) in the class. Kekeke. I scored badly in objective question. I dun like objective question… kekeke.

Lastly, my teacher. He is also quite special. He is younger than me ( 1 year younger than me but i am look younger than him hahahahaha). He come from Taiwan but currently dunno why staying in Malaysia. He likes violin so much as he looks so serious when we dun understand what he teach but he sometimes also makes cold joke that make me think…. hahaha… it is the gap of an artist & normal people like me. He is the one who always like to talk to me indirectly “the one who talk a lot (me) play the next notes”. Well… my comment on him is that… sometimes v hardly understand what he teaches as his level on this knowledge is so high and he dun understand why v can’t understand what he teaches. I also feel very headache on this. But when he plays the violin, all of us is like… we just want to listen violin but dun want to learn anymore as it sounds hard to play and we come to class just to pay & listen to him in playing violin.

Haih… violin is hard to learn. Harder than piano very much. Even though i already very busy and tired in working, and my mum keep asking me stop the violin class as it is on Sunday early morning and i have not enough sleep as work till late night. However, i do enjoy in attending the class as it is the time when i can forget the work and can be happier & relax – laugh, fight with teacher (not really fight, just disagree) & playing around as there is no exam. Kekeke… But the class may end soon as it is a short course, or maybe we will have another sem if all of us want to stay… dunno… wait & see. But i really appreciate to know each of my classmates. They are so so so special and nice. They make me feels life is beautiful & interesting. Really glad to know them. I always think, if that day i didn’t make my mind to register this class, then i may miss to know them. So, i very appreciate that i have this chance to know them. There are many people that we met and hi & bye, but the problem is… do we really see the inside of them? Do we try to understand them? Don’t you know they all are beautiful in heart? What a waste if you missed to know them more?

**Sun**

I really do hope that i can have some day off.

Really tired manz… The works seems like never can be finished. Even i worked on it on weekend also cannot be finished. So bad that i even have work till 5am and have to sacrify my favor class on Sunday morning. Give me a break!!! Going to get crazy.

God!!! Please… give me something good happen.

Last Friday i went to a wedding dinner and met some old friends. The day was quite happy coz v did have some good & unforgetable moment together. Also, i normally only drink max 2 glasses of red wine. That day force to drink more than i expected. This is the first time Yee mee and I experience what is drunk. Both of us walk also have problem and the head is even more pain after sleep for awhile.

Gosh… Thank god i didn’t drive that day. Sure cannot reach home 1.

Lastly… Hm… I would like to say… congratulation to Sui Mei. Hoping you enjoy your new life with your husband. I believe nothing is perfect. But the difficulties make us become a better person and a main factor to improve ourselves. Hoping you and husband also go through all the challenge in the future. N’ wishing all the lovers in the world, Happy Together!

Fighting for your happiness, I also will fight for myself! Haha… wait & see… tired to fight for it already… haih…

**sun**

**** Today is 30 sept 07 - Happy birthday to my dearest Bee Bee… miss ya… you r getting prettier already… so wish u in the future is prettier x 10000000….

Finally got some times to blog about my last trip… just a short blog.

Thanks for my friends who knows me so much. Thanks for supporting me. Thanks for remember my way of traveling (Haha, thank you YK for remembering how I spent my last year birthday¡­ so surprise that you still remember it and YOU ARE SO SMART. Hahaha, you able to guess how I spend my birthday this year even before I told anyone and before I went.)

         ­ I have given myself a 24 hours trip on the day of my birthday. Should I call it "traveling or "runaway"? I think Runaway will be a
better word to describe it. I was trying to runaway from the problem. Really unlike me - trying to hide myself from anyone on birthday. However, I thought I able to escape it and get release myself. Actually it can’t. There is no physically boundary for this problem.

I wonder who said the golden sentence that "when you are sad, go out and travel by yourself to find the happiness". Well, hahaha, the sentence is correct and also incorrect in some extend. Like last year birthday, I was able to refresh myself after taking a ferry to "jump away" from the Liverpool mainland. However, this time I proved that please NEVER never travel by yourself if u still not yet recover. It only will weaken your protection and immune system. So, if you want to go out for a walk, please find someone to be with you. (I will be the best candidate if you u don’t know where to go¡­ hahaha¡­ travel is my expertise and my favour, kekeke.)

However, I believe there is always a beautiful thing happen in a
journey no matter where you go (even if you got lose in the journey, hilang passport, hehe¡­:P). Although I found the Pangkor trip didn’t strengthen my immune system but weaken it, some more kena scolded "kau kau" after back from the trip coz before that never informed my family I am going alone, BUT… at least I got a chance to step on the sand and got wet (foot only:P). And also can visit a friend and his parent in Ipoh, and the most important, bought a big bag of cheap junk food. Hahaha. (but didn’t buy the fresh ikan masin and my mother felt very rugi in not buying it at Pangkor, kekeke¡­)

Actually it is very lucky for this time as I got at least a friend there to pick me up. (Before this I really thought I can go with nobody :P) Thanks ya, Ivan¡­ and thanks your parent for the Dim sum. I enjoyed the breakfast. Even this is just the second time I went to Ipoh, I feel I really like this place. I like to see how people live quite differently th city people. I don’t mean that city people is better. Sometimes the city life is even worse. But it is something new for me, so I really feel very interested to know them more¡­. I want to know how is their life in the town? What is the perception they have on city? The most interesting point I would like to know~  What makes they want to stay at a town for whole life? I really can’t imagine it if I have to live in a town for whole life¡­ I only will stay at there if it is on hill, having my own farm cafe/ guest house and it is not so far from the city, then I will. Haha, think too much….

**sun**