Archive for December, 2005

Happy new year to u all

Friday, December 30th, 2005

Ah…

a new year is coming leh… sound scaring…coz’ time like time pass so fast… from year 1 of advanced diplome go to year 2, from a student became a trainee…getting more experience and happen and get more mature n’ older… headache neh~

in 2006, i dun care is it in good economic, or who win the election. As long as we can be together in a family or friends. I just hope everyone is safe and healthy and happy. Peace! No war, no disaster.

Everyone here must happy oh. no matter how hard it will be, dun be affraid, it will pass so soon. when we look back, all the big problem now will become a piece of cake…

so dun so mind on the unhappy things that coming in 2006. Face it with confidence!

I am here to give u energy!

AZA AZA Fighting! FIGHTING!Fighting!

let’s welcome our super star : "2006"

**SUN**

11th week (19 - 25/12/2005)– 28 Dec- Family trip ~ Penang

Wednesday, December 28th, 2005

         Ah… last Friday, woke up at 8 sth on the morning. After prepare everything, we, my parent, second sis and her bf, third sis& her bf , and me & genki went to ampang to take breakfast. Unfortunately, my third sis forgot to take the container for contact lens, my mum forgot to take sunglass and me, forgot to bring money! So, we went back home again to take everything after the breakfast.

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             Dscn2899 Then we took the KL-North highway which near Bangsar there to Penang. I&Genki were same car with my parent, then my sis them were in another car. We took about five hours to Penang. Because we stop at Bilor (correct spelling?!) for the “Wan Tang Mee”. We always eat at the same restaurant when pass by Bilor.

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      Dscn2883      Through out the journey, Genki only have 2 things to do inside the car. One is sleep, another one is bite. He always bite my hand, what I can do is take out his toys n’ put into his mouth. Then I can’t sleep with him, so I take him to my sis car on the half journey. I saw Penang bridge. Dscn2908

Then we straightly go to check in. The resort we stay is called Leisure Cove. It is at Batu Feringi, where most of the hotel and apartment is there as it is just besides the beach. We everytime also stay in the same resort and already so famous with the road and place we gonna go.Dscn2913

   

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    Penang is like our another home, coz’ my parent like this place, just because of one reason, lots of delicious food in cheap price. So, since standard 4, the first time I came to Penang, almost every year or 2 years after that I will go penang. Hm… for my family, we go Penang is actually not for travel as we already went to its interesting place for many times. We went there just for family gathering… Haha… though we everyday meet each other. But we seldom go shopping together with daddy, coz’ my dad prefer give us money to buy anything we want rather follow us here and there. So only go there can get the chance to shop with dad as he got no where to go.

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             This time, there is another reason for this family trip. Because, hehehe, my dad would like to know more on my two sis’ bf. Just to see is it the guys is in good attitude or a nice person. Hm… from my observation, my second sis bf get a higher marks Dscn2937

coz’ he is more mature as he is a successful businessman and working for his family business. But he also not so serious or boring, he is quite funny and easy going people. Then my third sis’ bf is also working for his family business, he can consider a reliable guy as he has his own business in the age of 25. Dscn2960

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He has one favor, he like Panasonic handphone very much, because he collect all the advertisement of Panasonic hp since the GD90 model and even having Panasonic hp for himself and my sis. Hiuh~ What a luxury habit. Both of them actually knowing each other in the industry, through my sis’ mouth before meeting each other. It is because they are in the same field, which is selling cloth for furniture or clothes.

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              My second sis’ bf is the wholeseller, he has a big store and luxury office in Ampang area (coz’ I went there before mah). The office is fun. It is like a double storey bungalow and there is a pool inside the office that the fish can swin out to the building. hehe… Then my third sis’ bf is in the sewing industry, they need to buy cloth from wholesaler. So he has heard my second sis’ bf before. In conclusion, this two guys is “passed” coz’ my dad just want to see is it this two guys are rude and that kind of man who will beat their couple, haha…

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          Hm… then we went to “Gen Lo Tzi” to visit the “Kua Yi”,Dscn2964

go “Wen Tzi Jiao” at night to have a walk,Dscn2931

go Taman Tumbuhan to see monkey and scare Genki (hehe) Dscn2970

and go gurney plaze to shop,

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go the end part of Batu Ferringi to “jalan-jalan” coz’ there is night market every night.

Most of the time we spent in these three days is not visiting, but eating. We eat a lots of things, we always went to the place with lots of food stalk, then we ordered many many food to eat together. My sis favor is “goreng Kui Tiau Mee” then my favor is Dim SumDscn3021

and Penang “Chu Zheong fun”. Dscn2951

I like the dim sum is because it is cheap, so I can eat a lot and also have many choice of dim sum and dessert. Then the “Chu Zheong Fun” is really special, only the “fun” and its special sauce not other things like Ampang one. The sauce is so special and tasty so can eat the “fun” is more than enuf. Dim sum and this “chu zheong fun” is always a must to eat when we go penang and it always is our breakfast.

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            Because of my second sis’ bf is Christian, so he only stay one night and leave on 24 with my sis as he gonna gather with his family and go church. Then we definitely agree that let Genki go home with them early. It is because… actually it is not allow to let dog enter any resort and hotel. So it is quite hard for us to bring Genki out and into the resort as he very not willing to hide in our bag. Some more he very like to bark when he want something (eg.drink water) and dun want something (when we scold him), really worry he will be find out by the resort personnel and other visitor. The worst is he dun want to sleep when we want to sleep. We kept him inside the room with my sis n’ me at night. He keeps on jump up to our bed and bark when we dun care him. As my sis all slept, so I have to take care him. What I can do is sit beside the bed and put him on my leg and touch him softly then he will automatically fall asleep. Then when he slept, I put him back to his own cushion (Genki ada bawa beg sendiri with his own toys, food, cushion…) But when I just put him back, and I just leave, he woke up and jumping beside the bed again.

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             Then I have to repeat the same action, put him on my leg, make him fall sleep, put him back to cushion. Then he also repeat the same thing, woke up again once I leave. AHAHA.. I already cannot tahan coz; I very sleepy already. Then I dun care, I bring him to bed to sleep with me and he keeps want go to ganggu my sis who was sleeping. Then I have to holding him to sleep. Finally he willing to sleep and when I found he sleep like pig until the four leg was in the air, then I put him back without changing his pose of sleeping to cushion and huih~ he didn’t wake up! But actually he quite nice la. In the mid night when I woke up, I curi-curi looked at him and actually he already woke up and standing, but he didn’t make noise and ganggu us sleeping, just hanging around and seeing us sleeping. So cute!

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        Actually there are so many little funny things I found in this trip. But I have to make it short and straight to the point, coz’ worry get bored with long story. Here are the other little happens:

1. Penang DVD is cheap. Only RM3 per one, some more not the cinema version, is like the original DVD version, even for the new and latest movie. We have brought DVD player to there, so we bought lots DVD to watch at night. And the DVD may come in one set, which mean, 1 DVD ada 3 or 2 movie in it. Save space to keep!

2. Oh… Penang ada Lim Kok Wing eh… at Pulau Tikus so disgusting to see its advertisement around, even ada in Penang. Ho~

3. When we went to the food stalk, we have served by 2/3 kids from different different stalk. Why the government allow kids to work leh~

4. I accidentally listened the song “I think I” from the soundtrack of Full House in Mandarin version. Wah, surprising. But dunno who the female Chinese singer of the song is. But quite warm, coz’ get hear a familiar song in other place.

5. In these 3 days that we visited Penang, the sky is always in cloudy. Make me miss home and friends when Christmas’s eve.

6. We found out most of the Penang Chinese restaurant tak ada Chinese tea. Coz’ my family always likes to drink Chinese tea when eating (coz’ healthy wor). So, my mum feel weird that a Chinese restaurant tak ada Chinese tea.

7. 25th of Dec is a good day to get marry. Coz’ there was bridegroom and the friends came to our resort to pick up the bride. So, we think, the bride is from outside of Penang and the bridegroom is from Penang. Even on the way back to KL, we saw the wedding car with bride and bridegroom inside from other state was going to KL. Wah, why so many cross-state marriage. So tiring wedding… Next time I want cross-country one, hehe… more tired.

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           Then the day on Sunday night after back from KL, I went to the Christmas Party of Easther’s society. I thought is in PGRM, so I drove all the way to there, and went to the hall at 4th floor and found out the floor is dark and nobody in the building. Wah scaring. Then I try to ask myself “Dun tension, though it is really scaring and dangerous as nobody there and it is dark. U have to calm down and take the stair go the ground floor.” Huih~ finally reached ground floor. And immediately called Easther. But I call so many many times she didn’t pick up the phone. I know she has few performance on that day so she may be not around to pick up the call. So, I wait at PGRM main entrance. Then I still scared. Coz’ the 2 security guard of PGRM keeps walking around me. Then I immediate ask for helps from Lum as he is just live near PGRM. But unfortunately, he was at Seremban at that moment. Ah… but thanks god he tried to release my tension in the half an hour by talking with me on the phone. Then I got call from Easther and actually is me who misunderstanding that it is at MPAJ, not PGRM. Ah… MPAJ eh… it is just at opposite road of my house eh…

           Then I went there and see their performance and met quite a lot of new friends. Coz’ dunno why that night, the people there will initiative come and approach to u and asking who u come with and make friends with u. This society is about “we r family”, and all the world together live in peace and it originated from Korea. So, there was video conference with the Korea headmaster, they called him “teacher”. They like really look at him like god, respect him much. The goodness of this society is, they have many branches in different place, you can learn singing, modeling, dancing, or join a play without paying any money. As this society also available in other country or area in Malaysia, so, in each year, they will organize more than one trip to visit other countries and meet the other member. Cool~ But I am not going to join, at least in this moment, I dun. :P

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**SUN**

11th week (19 - 25/12/2005) – 22 Dec- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Khee Khee~~ hehe..

Thursday, December 22nd, 2005

Today I went to PGRM with yee mee to see Khee’s sis performance for charity.

Hm… this charity musical is quite nice. Not only live music, but also hot dance and Indian music and …Dscn2858

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Coz’ I always like listen the live music. :P

Khee’s sis is one of the piano player, and after seeing her performance, we went to Seven Star in pandan indah with pek khee and her boyfriend to meet Siew Mun them.

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Siew mun came with wei keong, ivan, doreamon and

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. We have drink together and when reach 12a.m., the staff of Seven Star was automatically deliver a cake with singing the birthday song. hehe… quite surprising also.

I hope the 3 wishes that U have said is really can become true. And I also wishing u Happy Always n’ Always happy in Love. Coz’ the lady in love is most beautiful. J

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… Tmr morning gonna go penang lor.. SO won’t online for few days.

Means, go on fri, come back on Sunday. And when come back from penang, have to go PGRM at night coz’ Easther and her society is having Christmas party and performance on that night, so as I promised her will going, so probably going with yee mee.

The words to friend is important, must make it come true… But dunno why nowadays, male is always forgettable and always forget what they said n’ promise… Doesn’t like a man, and what a man should do.

Haih~ Disappointed. We, ladies, have more “Yee hei” than them.

No matter how la!

I hope everyone have a warm Christmas and dun sing the song - “lonely, lonely Christmas”. Must go out with friend or family and feel the love of the world.

The world is beautiful~

Let me sing my favor Christmas song to u “All I want for Christmas is U”!!!!

**sun**

Here is the bag that I gave to yee mee, nice leh… hehe

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11th week (19 - 25/12/2005) – 21 Dec- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEE MEE

Wednesday, December 21st, 2005

            Oh… last few days very busy. Work on webpage design, prepare for presentation and rush for thesis.

            For webpage… it does not look like a webpage… but more like design work. Then for presentation… It was held in Monday at Utar lecture hall. This time, there is always some problem with the powerpoint. So… fuu’s group can’t finish the presentation with showing powerpoint. Supposedly, my group is the last group as we lucky draw on last week n’ we get the number of “11”, the last group. But something wrong with chun’s group powerpoint, so they present at the last. Hm.. Compare to last sem, this presentation is easier coz’ Miss Yesu allows us to present with looking at the powerpoint. And the point is more straight forward and not confusing like last sem, so I did not have much preparation on it also get a “not bad” mark. Hehe…

            But my healthy is getting worse. Once I get wind blow, then my skin start turn to red color… but after drink ginger juice, it disappear. My mum said becoz’ ginger like antibiotic, it can make health stronger. Oh… ic.

            Then the most suffering is for thesis. Coz’ suddenly was informed that have to pass up as soon as possible. Then I spent 2 days to finish it. I did not skip any class in these two days but finally I got the time to write the result of our research in 22 pages (double spacing) within two day. The total of hour that I spent is only around 8 hours in these 2 days… Really can’t believe I can write some many things in this short time. Haha… But I have to double check the work as I worry I too sleepy and have write the wrong figure.

            Yeah, very happy that I finished it! Then today oh, siew mun, bee teng, phei ling and I, were went to KLCC to celeb Christmas early. We went to eat at Secret recipe. And after that, we continue ate McDonald’s ice cream. And I got eat my favor, Choco Top! hehe… I got the present from Bee teng…it is foot chain, very nice one… I now already wearing it. hehe..

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    Then after KLCC, I took bath at home first then went to Just Café with Yee mee… Coz’ today is yee mee’s birthday. I have helped Lum to buy chocolate for her as she like to eat chocolate. And for me, I bought a bag to her. I bought in Isetan. Very nice one. I also very like it. The bag look class coz’ the original price also more than RM100. But as now is sales carnival, so I get it in a cheaper price. But I can’t buy one more for myself as quite expensive. He… Nevermind lor~

            And yesterday we have a meeting with the Kojadi people, who going to give us the loan for our further study. Wah, the interest is so high, 9%. If I get rm20,000 loan, then may have to pay back around RM29,500 in the end. But it is depends on the situation. The faster we pay back, the lower interest we get. Hm… Dunno, still have the times to consider it. Haha, we said the Kojadi Loan like Ah long, coz’ high interest. We made joke that, it is better we quickly get a “water fish” to get the money. No need interest and pay back.

            In conclusion ah, even though this few days quite busy ah, but actually very happy and feel energized, coz’ I watched full house again, so, it gives me energy! Fighting!

**sun**

10th week (12 - 18/12/2005) – 16 Dec- Settle!

Friday, December 16th, 2005

Ah… So crazy. I got a “bao” delivering!

Though it sounds scaring for me that it was delivered at 3.45am,… but …quite warm la.

Thank u lor, friend!

hehe…

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Hm…

What I want to say is… I want to tell the reason of being unhappy this few days.

Because I just settle this problem, then I only willing to say it out now.

Actually…

The main reason is because I start to lose confidence on myself la.

Hm… how to start leh…

Hm… there is an audition of musical drama in our college. So, once phei ling asked me go audition together, I immediately said yes to her as, before this, we already promise go any audition together.

Actually, for me, the result and type of audition that I take part in is doesn’t matter. The most important is to do something together with friends. I just hope we can share the memory together, grow together, then the friendship only will be stronger. I dun care it is a suffering or negative experience. The important is , we go through it together

Hm… But on that day of audition, I was prepared n’ thought we really go together after class. But unfortunately, I found out the promise was broken and it really make me disappointed and shock that I have to know from others that u already went to the audition.

But I really didn’t angry of u, phei ling, I just feel sad and suddenly very look down on myself. Maybe because I recently really lose confidence. I think the presence of me is not important at all. So, I suddenly have the feeling that, u doesn’t need this friend, me, anymore.

Hm… it is a small matter. Just because recently I have other friendship problem. So, I just cannot stand strong and be rational as usual when it suddenly came together. It is not your fault, just my problem. U have your reason to go audition without notice me. It is ok.

Sorry to make u worry neh… U no need said sorry to me for your promise. U know what, that moment when u said sorry to me it caused me getting more sad… haha.. I really bad.

But finally, hehe… today I purposely went to wangsa to see u is not because I want to pass u the herb as you are sick. It is just an excuse… hehe. The main reason is because I want to say sorry to u as I making u worry. I seldom say sorry to others oh. But I think this time I should face it directly n’ say it out. If not, will get regret!

Really really sorry neh!

I shouldn’t lose confidence as I still have other friends are stand by me.

But this time, dun break your promise as U said we going to exchange present together for Christmas, we wanna see the Chinese movie and Naiya together N’ have buffer together in New Year eve. And must be 4 of us together oh.

Finally I say it out, coz’ I want to face it. I dun want to hide this problem. Hiding the problem only will let the problem getting bigger.

Aiya… from this story, u know How childish I am…!!! shame! pai seh neh….

**SUN**

*I know there is someone who reading this will say me “cha”, right? Lum?? hehe…

  I know I very cha la!

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10th week (12 - 18/12/2005) – 15 Dec- feeling better . bless U

Thursday, December 15th, 2005

Hm… today whole day staying at home to do the webpage design… i think all of us also are doing the same thing, right ?

I feel a bit better and warm as i got a call from yong fei.

We have talked on phone about one hour.. quite a long conversation. but the line is not clear, so it takes time to talk.

Hm.. i worry he feel bad at there, coz’ his life at there now is just work n’ sleep. so i just keep telling him, his situation now is already very good as his boss is giving him a privilage. N’ telling him, if i got the chance go there on next year, he has to help me get a job there and "light" me… hehe..

i believe he can be very well at there once he get the legal worker approval. Just hope his effort that he spent can get back the reward.!

Hm… i feel better after talking with him becoz’… he told me he hardly find someone to talk to… i should feel glad that, at least i am now can live with my family . still have a shelter when feel bad.

From our conversation, i get know some of the rules to live at there and his environment, what kind of friend he know at there, and his future plan. At least i can make sure now he is fine.  but hope he still can be funny like he used to. Dun tension, ok?!

We will feel bad if u’r not fine at there…. i will continue send u the funny sms la!!!

hehe…

**Sun**

10th week (12 - 18/12/2005) – 14 Dec – Ah… I HAVE BEEN BEATING DOWN AGAIN!!!!

Thursday, December 15th, 2005

Yesterday ah… (13th), we have two works to pass up. One is the group assignment for Advertising Management and another one is to show the main page of our webpage to our tutor for progression check.

            For the assignment,… hm.. I also not very satisfied with my work, because the title quite “cacat”, so in the assignment we have to mention again n’ again the same point. It is not because of I got nothing to write, is the assignment itself limit us to write more different point of view. SO, I also feel very boring in doing it.

            Then for the webpage design, haha, finally I knew how to do animated gif. But not using flash but Adobe Image Ready. Ah fuu taught me on it and it is really easy to understand how it functions. Even I, a computer idiot also know how to do, surely everyone can create breathtaking animation. But unfortunately, after I show tutor my main page, the background of the website was banned by him coz’ he said “it looks like a personal website” Well, I am doing on Putrajaya. And his comment is, indirectly telling me dun make it looks kids or frivolous as it is a government center, coz’ I am using light blue color background plus …I also think it really looks like kid or girl’s work. So, today (wed), I show him another background and it was approved. and it is like this -à

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You know la, I have a very bad design sense, if u asks me for fashion, I sure can match it well. Graphic design, nope!

            Yesterday, we also went to Sungai Wang to conduct our research on the topic “the effectiveness of Jay chou as the spokesperson of Panasonic X super slim series”. It is quite hard to open our mouth and ask the people to help us fill in survey form. What we can do is to walk around and see, which one is so free and nothing to do. Then we found the ppl who are sitting in café alone, or working in a small shop with no customer there… There are the people who reject us at the beginning and when we said it is to survey on Jay, then they willing to help us. But there is also few of them, when we said survey on Jay, their response is, “I dun like Jay”… wah… so direct. But still, they helped us to fill in. We got around 20 sth of them to fill in the form in Sungai Wang and Times Square. Actually, we already have more than 50 respondents. But we just went SUngai wang to survey for fun. :P

            Then ah… after that I got met Lum, and hehe, becoz’ of a bet, he has to buy me a meal. Then we went to eat Japanese food and talked on “something”. Then I only realized, “Well~ she is your Ex ah”. Coz’ I already knows u guys for long, but never see u guys punya girlfriend… really weird. Before I see them, u guys already broke up, haih… how come so fast one!!!??

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  Today after class we went to KLCC again. It is because today is the last day of EABEX. Another reason is because I found two girls to work for my colleague, Kelvin’s booth. So, I wanna make sure he give them salary and clear it by today. If not, I will feel sorry for the 2 girls as is me to find them to work, though I dunno them and they dunno me.

            Hm… actually, today something is happened and… dunno

            I just know I can’t see the road clear when I driving back all the way from KLCC. I just know I have to step on the oil baffle and the car will keep running. When I aware, I only start realize and wondering “Where am I?” I just know at that moment, I really hope my phone ring or I can stop at somewhere or a destination that I can find someone to talk to. Maybe talk on non-sense topic or even just a greeting, I want to stop at somewhere. But…

            It has beaten me again!!!

            Dun worry. Just… pressure. No problem. J

**sun**

9th week (5 - 11/12/2005) – A tired week

Wednesday, December 14th, 2005

Hm… First of all, sorry for late update my blog.

            Hm… because there is assignment need to pass up and have to work. Last week start from tues, we have to work at KLCC (convention centre la) for Eabex (East Asia Business Exhibition). We were work behalf of Cityneon la, coz’ they are the official contractor for this exhibition. Some more this event was held together with the Asean Summit, so there is some Minister from other country also will come to the exhibition. In order to make sure everything go smooth, four of us have to work together on it.

            Compare to other exhibition we have worked, this one is the easiest one. It is because the exhibitors are lesser. But it is a quite serious exhibition, coz’ everything we go into the building, we have to have body scan then only can go in. But… most of the time the Q is long, so we all curi masuk from the loading area for lorry… hehe faster mah. As we are contractor, the security allows us to go in from there.

But this time we always have to deal with the outsider like Organizer and the people from Matrade, and the sponsor like our local designer Melinda Looi. We already very friend with the organizer, coz’ we were helping each other in this exhibition, and there were two handsome Malay guys that my friend and I like to see hehe… So, we like to talk with them n’ they also like to talk with us when free time, though we are from very different company.

            In the few days of working, we almost everyday have no time to eat lunch. Have to work from 9am till 9-10pm. Thank god, our colleague have bought muffin for us. But not time to eat. I bite one piece, and then maybe half an hour later only get continue eat. But… quite enjoy, coz’ met the people from different country, like Korean,

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            Then when during the free time in working, I have to write down the point that I want to include in my assignment. Then after back home at 11pm, can do assignment faster as the point is already there. Do assignment for awhile, then go sleep, coz’ next day have to work at early morning.

            On sat, it was the opening ceremony of the exhibition. We all have to wear formal as the show was start and the visitor will be businessman and PM officiate the exhibition. Then actually during the event day, we have nothing to do. So, tat day we went to work just purposely to see how great the opening ceremony is and to see PM, hehe… then finally Sim and I got see him in a corridor after the opening ceremony was ended. Dscn2709

When saw him, already dunno what can we do, coz’ lots of security guard were around him though there is no other public. Before that, we said the joke that, if got see PM, we would ask him to take pic for us. We didn’t mean ask him take picture with us, but is to ask him help us to carry the camera and shoot us, as we want four of us take pic together n’ lack of ppl to take the camera.. :P

            Then sat is my last day to work for this exhibition and sim&yan continue worked on Sunday. So, after work, we took picture with boss them then we went to take dinner together with KC n’ Kelvin, coz’ very long time didn’t take a meal with them.

            In conclusion… Even the few days were very busy for work n’ studying, but at least I got something from it. I get see the new technology of Samsung LCD screen, the working of Toyota engine, knew the ppl from Singapore, from other International contractor like Pico (official contractor for PC fair) and Qube.

            Hm… ok lah. not bad!

            Oh yeah… now (14 Dec) is already in week 10. I will post my “mind” when there is something happened or I want to say something. No longer post after the week. It is because… the “deadline” for studying is getting closer and I want to write everything down in clearer, coz’ I really worry I will forget.

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8th week (28 - 4/12/2005) – Who Cares?! (The FolloWing will be A boRing pOst.)

Sunday, December 4th, 2005

Ano…

How to start leh?

There is two happy things happened in this week. One is mun jun’s birthday and another one is finally we have one new family member called Genki. Pet is really very innocent. Even just seeing them walk here and there, it makes me forget anything that is unhappy.

Last week is also a busy week. But… I already used to it. Work for Cityneon, and wish to finish other assignments n’ thesis earlier before deadline, so I always like so rushing this and that. I already successfully practiced not to sleep too long and wake up too late, as I want to catch the time and as I said last week, never say “no time”. Hm… As now I have another role besides as a student, I always wish I can maintain my quality of assignment and prove my ability is still … not bad. I hope so I can make it, coz’ I believe there is “a person” who “care” on my every step and wait me falling down.

Though it is tired that I need to study, and went to work after class directly from college, and even may need back college again to meet classmates after work to discuss on assignment and thesis, it is all fine with me. I still can manage it and take it, coz’ I am crazy in working, used to do OT until 1am at office… haha, but when last time was in training time la.

Hm… but I always believe the physical kind of tire is never heavier that I feel the inner tired. “Heavy”… I think this word is the only right word to discuss the tire in me now. I am not tired with thinking on working or studying as I know I can finish it in the end.

Hm… Friendship is always important to me. I am very biased. I always treat good to my girl friends, but I treat very bad to guy. If girl date me I always said yes, if guy, never get success. Hm… I mean… I take my girls so important in my life.

But, haih… Now I just feel like, “U r so stupid that spend too much time on

your friends, then what u get now?” “Zero”. “They are always the first one in

ur

mind when u have something good to share and always just think of how to have the good time together.” “But u are not the one that comes to their mind when they have something good or bad to share” “U are just a <thing> that present or not present at there also nevermind, nothing important for them.”

That day I really hope I can find a transport and disappear from there. “So stupid, u just likes one of the furniture that wasting the space”.

“Who care u r there?!!!!”

“Stupid, u always look stupid.”

“When u r not happy, oppositely forcing urself to give a bigger smile than usual in front of people. U’re really~ really~ getting crazy!”

But what can I do?

Hm… close again. Dun close. Or close.

I am fine!

(Sorry for short post, but that’s all what I can tell. Sorry for no interesting post. Sorry for making this week post look bored. Sorry for making u, the loyal reader disappointed)

**sun**

*There is song i recently always listen to, called Heaven knows, by Daniel.

The lyrics is like this:

"Coz’ Heaven knows why i live in despair… and all the time i act so brave, i’m shaking inside Why does it hurt me so?"

A nice song with a right voice to express the feeling