Aza Aza* Fighting! - Mirai’s Bizarre Area, ‘未来’ 的 異想世界, My MBA

First of all, let me say, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to my frens who birthday fall on 19 and 20 of May – Car Men, my twins - Siew Mun, and my bro – Kai Wei.

Next I want to say Happy Birthday to…. Myself. Hahaha… still long way to go. (Dream first)… The next birthday guy/ girl is…. Siew King!!! Let us plan a surprise & happy birthday for u.

Hm… recently have some good dinner with friends. We talked about something and finally I got to stop addicting to some "habit". Hm… Some people addictive to sport, some people addictive to watch drama, and some of them addictive to smoke. I believe most of the people have something that they are addicted to. And… me too. The things that we addicted to may be something good or bad. And it is hard to stop yourself from something that you addicted to, just like smoking. That’s why people always say the urge of smoking is hard to reduce as it is already become your habit.

For me, I start forcing myself to stop from having some "bad" habit. Hm… for e.g. I like to drive out on weekend. When I back home, I always go a big round (a farer destine) to a "particular place", then only back home. Actually it is not a bad habit. Just been told by friends that I should stop doing this again as I shouldn’t addictive to something that bring no good consequence to myself but something that keep on disgusting me. I used to enjoy this habit coz for me, it is not disgusting but my "happiness". But I’ve been told that this happiness is not real. I would like to thank my fren who willing to accompany me went to the "particular place" for the very last time.

I feel very good now as I started to accept the new thing coz I always famous as "degil" and hardly give up. And I willing to give up something is really not a easy thing for me. There is medical to help smoker to stop smoking. But I don’t think there is medical for me to stop those habits that I got for so many years. Maybe the people never thought "it" is so important to me and thought that I can live without "it". But for my close friends who know everything, they know that for this few years, "it" plays an important role in my life to make me always look so happy with my life, "it" give me courage and be positive to face everything. I can’t imagine how I will be without having this habit in my life.

Wait and see. The hardest time is coming…

**Sun**

Sleepy… Finally i took a medical leave and spend my whole day in sleeping. Have a good rest. Feels like full with happiness.

So long time didn’t write blog already. After a crazy period, i think it is the time for me to summarise what happened in the last month.

How crazy is it? hm…Actually nothing crazy, just went out more often and longer time i.e. go out at morning and back at mid night and went to clubbing in 2 weekend within a month (it is really unlike me) Clubbing… It is something new to me and something that i like and also dun like. I just wonder why people like to drink alcohol so much as it is so bitter and make me feel so uncomfortable (but i am into red wine very much. :P) . And it is a dangerous tool to make one lose their rational or is it just an excuse for them to lose their rational. Soooo scarying!!!! Hm…But will i go there again? Yes. The reason is simple, because we still leave our wine there.. hahaha…. No la, just kidding. I think i still more suit for drinking tea or just drinking wine (if got good wine dun forget to call me!!!) and spend my weekend with shopping, jogging and reading and taking photo and keep sot ha sot ha with my girls. Better do something that is more Mirai. Ah… i used to think "I WANT TO LEARN CLUBBING!!" Paiseh la, no matter how hard i try i also cannot be a prof. clubber. Sorry. I can’t be a hot chic and i can’t sing the song "Don’t you wish a girlfriend that hot like me… " hahaha, kidding only. But really Sorry for not being a perfect girl. Hm… i think i still better to spend my weekend at setapak or jln genting kelang.. hehe…You may go there and look for me during saturday la. Not only night oh, coz i even may spend my whole day there .. hehe…You may find me in one of the food court (Attention: is food court not cafe oh, coz we like to order many things and chit-chat and share the food together, esp the BBQ chicken, so delicious and cheap!!!!) I like to hide myself in tat area when everytime not happy or too boring coz it is a nice place for me to scold my frens or my frens scold me loudly.. hahaha….But, Sorry for being a boring girl. Yup. I am such a boring girl.

Jump to another topic. Thinking of few weeks back, my very kind female boss was taking lunch with us and when we discussed a topic she suddenly said, "Never trust any guy. Woman should keep learning and working so we don’t need to count on man. Man cannot be trusted." That time when i heard it, i was shocked and thought, "Wah, no need that extreme gua. Surely in the world there are some man can be trusted one…" Then recently i really found out, eh, what she said absolutely accurate.

But thank to all the men i met recently. Because of them, i suddenly wake up from dream that i realized i really no need to waste so much effort on them. (Hm… i won’t tell what i experienced in this few weeks that brought me this kind of thinking). But it doesn’t mean i am not interested on man anymore (even i really think fall in love with woman is really better than man, hahaha). I still interested on man. My friends keep persuade me, "You shouldn’t close yourself to only one man. You should open the quota to others and try them as the criteria you set is very low. hahaha…(try here means, to see how is the interaction with other man)." Yup. The words from my boss and my friend is quite true. I think i shouldn’t have so much expectation on man and take them so seriously coz at the end the one who get hurt may be myself. I better spend my effort in working and travelling. Man, when he want to come then he will come. If he don’t want to come, no matter how hard you pull and cry also cannot la. Haih. All the man is the same (except my father. He is the perfect man in the world, hehe).

So, my next plan will be… keep the guy away before the one i like appear and …………………….. sleep first. Tomorrow have to keep fighting…!!! Aza Aza Fighting!!!

**SUN**