Aza Aza* Fighting! - Mirai’s Bizarre Area, ‘未来’ 的 異想世界, My MBA

Dear friends,

Fighting Fighting! Keep fighting!

I know you are searching your way… i know, and i understand… No worry, it will be fine. Take your time…

Life is beautiful. When u r lost,  just get out from the daily routine. Please see the world. See the world and expose yourself under the Sun. See how people live with dreams even they are in worse situation than us. I know you can overcome this difficulties.

I know you are lost and EQ is decreasing. Hm¡­ nevermind la, after awhile will be fine. The only way to solve problem is to face it, work on it, and then get yourself free from it and have some good time for yourself.

Let me bring you out and have some fun? Ok? No worry la~

You have me, you have us. Give u a hug, and keep fighting ya. When you feel tired, it is ok. Just rest for awhile. It is ok… Give yourself a break. Must love yourself more oh… coz v lov u also.

**sun**

Since last month or at the early of July, I’ve received presents and greetings from friends. I really appreciate it even it just a greeting. There were people asking me what I want for birthday. Hm… I can’t even think of one thing. Because I’ve got everything I need. Hm… maybe I got many things I wants. Girl always want clothes, bag and … but it just a want. Not a need. I dun need clothes and bag currently. I’ve got new clothes and bags that I haven’t use. So, don’t waste money on it la.

Actually I dun need any tangible thing. I just need a greeting and… a hug!!! Or a kiss!!! BUT… only for girls hehe… It is more than everything.

Then how will I spend my birthday? Well, a working day. After working hour, I will directly go for a break. I will spend it as how I spent my last birthday in

Liverpool

. I need the Sun and wide blue sky to pamper myself. I dun care to get brownie skin.

I’ve got everything. The love and pampering from family and friends. But, nothing is perfect. I’ve everything but except…

But i appreciate the imperfect.

**sun**

Dear friend,

Hello!!!

I already very long time did not blogging. People sometimes may wonder why I or other blogger enjoy blogging. I don’t know about others.  But for me, it is the time to look back, think back and remind myself any good or bad moment I have and I should appreciate. 

My current life… I think I schedule my time very appropriate until too appropriate. Monday to Thursday – working, Friday night (no matter work until how late, even until 11pm.) still want to have happy hour with friends after working. Then Saturday, I mostly give this day to my female friends or a batch of girl & boy friend. Sunday, stay at home be a guai guai lui and do some work.

Hm… for this blog, I just would like to share the happy things I got recently in this kind of boring routine. There are two happy things happened. The first thing is… de de de de… one of our friends is pregnant. I can’t tell you who she is as I… I think we still need to follow the very traditional belief that we better don’t disclose the pregnancy before the baby get stable. (But I think some of you may already can guess who she is, hehe :P). However, everyone who reading this blog, please do pray for the mother and baby get very well and stay healthy. And “Hey, the mother, please do take as many food as you can to get fat. Ok?!!! You are making us worry.”

And the second happy thing is… haha, my dad bought us ice cream. Haha… actually it is something funny. Because yesterday (Sunday) around 5pm, my dad came back with 3 ice creams (3 ice cream but not 4 because another sis is married and not at home mah…). Then he looks so excited and took it in front of my sis and I when we were watching TV. He said he heard there was someone was selling the ice cream in front of our apartment and then he just bought it for us. My sis and I were “hahaha” and pretending so excited to eat the ice cream. Why I said is pretending leh? Because I was so full as I just finished Cendol and Rojak half an hour ago. Haha… But I really so happy to see my dad took the 3 ice cream on his hand and he really looks like a kid. Hahaha. Can you imagine that? My dad is so big size with 3 ice creams. So funny. Haha.

That’s the happy things I have recently. It sounds normal. But I really appreciate. Super appreciate. I will forever remember how my dad looks with 3 ice creams on his hand.

**sun**

(Note: The following blog is mixed with fiction and non-fiction element. So, don’t take it seriously. Those who knows, you will know how to differentiate it :P)

You perceived and said that I am that kind of girl who drives slowly. That day I purposely drove in fast and made you scared.

You said, you scared not because of the speed. It’s just because you dun trust on the driver (me).

Then I said to myself (in heart), Hor, it is not because of my driving skill is bad, it’s just u never be my passenger.

Before I started my working life, I said to you I would spend most of my salary in traveling.

You said it is impossible as "it is easy to say, but so hard to do." Theory is always different with practical as you said most of the salary surely will spend on social.

Then I said to myself (in heart), I will show you what you said is wrong. I know you have somewhere far away that you wish to go but you think it is impossible to go at this moment. But I will show you I will turn the impossible to possible. If I can achieve my dream, you also can. If I can support myself for traveling oversea in half a year, you also can.

After that you didn’t say anything to me anymore.

Then my friend started to say something to me…

He said (a friend), something goes wrong. Even I was silent at that moment, but I said to myself, yup, I know what you mean. I am the mistake. Then I started to force myself in facing the cruel truth that my friend told me n… it is time to make the change.

Then recently he (a friend) talked with me about his ex. I said, I wonder what is the feeling that someone would experience after breaking up (as he always say I have no experience on this).

He said, the hardest time is not because you saw another guy is being with her. The hardest time is you even can’t send her a sms and ask her "where are you, what you’re doing" when you miss her. I said, I understand what you mean.

I have said so much, is it you have something should say to me?

**sun**

First of all, let me say, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to my frens who birthday fall on 19 and 20 of May – Car Men, my twins - Siew Mun, and my bro – Kai Wei.

Next I want to say Happy Birthday to…. Myself. Hahaha… still long way to go. (Dream first)… The next birthday guy/ girl is…. Siew King!!! Let us plan a surprise & happy birthday for u.

Hm… recently have some good dinner with friends. We talked about something and finally I got to stop addicting to some "habit". Hm… Some people addictive to sport, some people addictive to watch drama, and some of them addictive to smoke. I believe most of the people have something that they are addicted to. And… me too. The things that we addicted to may be something good or bad. And it is hard to stop yourself from something that you addicted to, just like smoking. That’s why people always say the urge of smoking is hard to reduce as it is already become your habit.

For me, I start forcing myself to stop from having some "bad" habit. Hm… for e.g. I like to drive out on weekend. When I back home, I always go a big round (a farer destine) to a "particular place", then only back home. Actually it is not a bad habit. Just been told by friends that I should stop doing this again as I shouldn’t addictive to something that bring no good consequence to myself but something that keep on disgusting me. I used to enjoy this habit coz for me, it is not disgusting but my "happiness". But I’ve been told that this happiness is not real. I would like to thank my fren who willing to accompany me went to the "particular place" for the very last time.

I feel very good now as I started to accept the new thing coz I always famous as "degil" and hardly give up. And I willing to give up something is really not a easy thing for me. There is medical to help smoker to stop smoking. But I don’t think there is medical for me to stop those habits that I got for so many years. Maybe the people never thought "it" is so important to me and thought that I can live without "it". But for my close friends who know everything, they know that for this few years, "it" plays an important role in my life to make me always look so happy with my life, "it" give me courage and be positive to face everything. I can’t imagine how I will be without having this habit in my life.

Wait and see. The hardest time is coming…

**Sun**

Sleepy… Finally i took a medical leave and spend my whole day in sleeping. Have a good rest. Feels like full with happiness.

So long time didn’t write blog already. After a crazy period, i think it is the time for me to summarise what happened in the last month.

How crazy is it? hm…Actually nothing crazy, just went out more often and longer time i.e. go out at morning and back at mid night and went to clubbing in 2 weekend within a month (it is really unlike me) Clubbing… It is something new to me and something that i like and also dun like. I just wonder why people like to drink alcohol so much as it is so bitter and make me feel so uncomfortable (but i am into red wine very much. :P) . And it is a dangerous tool to make one lose their rational or is it just an excuse for them to lose their rational. Soooo scarying!!!! Hm…But will i go there again? Yes. The reason is simple, because we still leave our wine there.. hahaha…. No la, just kidding. I think i still more suit for drinking tea or just drinking wine (if got good wine dun forget to call me!!!) and spend my weekend with shopping, jogging and reading and taking photo and keep sot ha sot ha with my girls. Better do something that is more Mirai. Ah… i used to think "I WANT TO LEARN CLUBBING!!" Paiseh la, no matter how hard i try i also cannot be a prof. clubber. Sorry. I can’t be a hot chic and i can’t sing the song "Don’t you wish a girlfriend that hot like me… " hahaha, kidding only. But really Sorry for not being a perfect girl. Hm… i think i still better to spend my weekend at setapak or jln genting kelang.. hehe…You may go there and look for me during saturday la. Not only night oh, coz i even may spend my whole day there .. hehe…You may find me in one of the food court (Attention: is food court not cafe oh, coz we like to order many things and chit-chat and share the food together, esp the BBQ chicken, so delicious and cheap!!!!) I like to hide myself in tat area when everytime not happy or too boring coz it is a nice place for me to scold my frens or my frens scold me loudly.. hahaha….But, Sorry for being a boring girl. Yup. I am such a boring girl.

Jump to another topic. Thinking of few weeks back, my very kind female boss was taking lunch with us and when we discussed a topic she suddenly said, "Never trust any guy. Woman should keep learning and working so we don’t need to count on man. Man cannot be trusted." That time when i heard it, i was shocked and thought, "Wah, no need that extreme gua. Surely in the world there are some man can be trusted one…" Then recently i really found out, eh, what she said absolutely accurate.

But thank to all the men i met recently. Because of them, i suddenly wake up from dream that i realized i really no need to waste so much effort on them. (Hm… i won’t tell what i experienced in this few weeks that brought me this kind of thinking). But it doesn’t mean i am not interested on man anymore (even i really think fall in love with woman is really better than man, hahaha). I still interested on man. My friends keep persuade me, "You shouldn’t close yourself to only one man. You should open the quota to others and try them as the criteria you set is very low. hahaha…(try here means, to see how is the interaction with other man)." Yup. The words from my boss and my friend is quite true. I think i shouldn’t have so much expectation on man and take them so seriously coz at the end the one who get hurt may be myself. I better spend my effort in working and travelling. Man, when he want to come then he will come. If he don’t want to come, no matter how hard you pull and cry also cannot la. Haih. All the man is the same (except my father. He is the perfect man in the world, hehe).

So, my next plan will be… keep the guy away before the one i like appear and …………………….. sleep first. Tomorrow have to keep fighting…!!! Aza Aza Fighting!!!

**SUN**

I chat with my friend in msn and he said Valentine’s Day is a sad day for him as he got no girlfriend and going to pass it alone. Then I start to think, why Valentine’s Day is a sad day and is it a sad day for me also?!…

After I think so hard, then my conclusion is… I dun think Valentine’s day is a sad day for me, or to others who is “single & available”. Maybe just a bit sad, especially for girl.

I am not sad on Valentine’s day even I dun have valentine, coz’ I got friend. We gathered on last year Valentine’s day and will gather again on this year. Hm… Friends are always important for me, especially those who are my soul mate. We support each other together to pass through the hard time. Valentine’s day may be one of the hard time for me, coz’… every time when ppl heard I am single, they will have this response: “Har?!!!! U still single ah? Then u going to pass it alone lor?” Even I am smiling, then in my heart is saying “Walau ye, so straight” (hahaha, just kidding).

Hm… Sometimes I am really super proud to be single, as I prefer to spend my each weekend with differ group of friends rather than keep on seeing the same person few days a week. But sometimes feel… a bit … not really happy that being single, and I think other female who are single maybe feel the same like me. The reason is becoz’…, sometimes I will feel like, I am single, but at the same time, it also means that I am in the group of ppl who not wanted by any1. Haha, I think, for me is still fine, as I still can consider as “young”. But I am super sad when I know there is some1 who is mature woman, and not in love. Coz woman is born to be pampered by man and love is everything in their life. If they dun have love, means they dun have a completed life. Sound sad.

That’s the saddest thing of being single. But my philosophy is …, when there is no one there to love you, then you have to push more effort to love yourself.

Gambare!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (To all the “single & available”)

Aza Aza Fighting!

**Sun**

Dear,

Watching the afternoon news, they were saying you met an accident and still in the emergency level. Seeing your parent and other artists were rushing to the hospital, I was so shocked and thought that you sure can get well soon.

When i back from dinner watching the evening news, the evening news was saying you already in the heaven. So shock to hear that. What a pity…

Dun worry, we will always remember you and your drama.

Have a happy life in the heaven.

**SUN**

Dunno why, recently down down de.

Even Santa Claus almost reaches to town and New Year is around the corner, in this festival season, I dun have celebration mood.

I got no hope on Christmas (especially the eve), coz I no longer is a kid to believe the Santa Claus will make my dream comes true. I remember I used to believe there is Santa Claus, and really thought to write a letter to him. I also used to hope to be Santa Claus / Santa Lina for others as others also have dreams that we can help to make it come true. But now I know, even I wait patiently overnight under the twinkle sky, there is no Santa Claus will come to me and say, “I know what is your dream, and I am here to make it comes true.” So, Christmas’ eve, it will be a day to spend with Genki. (Haha, I just worry even my parent will bring Genki out for Christmas’ eve)

New Year… What will happen in the coming year, I really got no idea at all. N’ … wondering why we have to have a New Year, and keep repeating doing the same celebration for New Year. Hm… it is really unlike me to complain on the New Year / Christmas celebration as I used to be the 1 to keep asking friends must have celebration for the special day and dun just let it go like that. Aiya, I am also confusing… So, for the reader out there, dun imitate what I said above. U guys must go out to have a looooooots of fun. I am just talking to the air. Hor, I really get crazy already. So, crazy people better keep themselves inside the house, if not, will bite others 1, Haha.

Wishing all have a sweet sweet Christmas and have celebration on New Year’s eve with full of hopes.

**SuN**

I have been working for two weeks before this. But these 2 weeks seem to be like 2 months for me. The reason… mainly is because the attitude and behavior of the boss. Then the second reason is because I dun like to work as media relation.

       For the boss attitude, I’m lazy to talk about her anymore. For media relation, even I can get to know the famous TV program producers in short time, but according to my personality, I think I really can’t work as PR. In these 2 weeks, I got to see some media people are really “pretending”, like to show off their power as media and love “face” and love you, if you can provide them free product (not only provide to the host oh, have to provide for the whole production team), then they only “consider” to give you some space in their program. What a dark world. That’s why I can’t adapt to the environment.

       So now, I am free again. But I won’t stay at home longer and doing nothing anymore coz I… Dunno, I just want to find anything to do. Typist, café, teacher, anything also can. Hahaha… I think I have enough rest lor. The most important is I hope I can start to earn money so my parent can enjoy their life and no worry on expenses anymore. They already very old and should not to work anymore. So, I must find work and get money then I can support their daily life expenses.

I realized some of my friends or the young adult nowadays did not give any pocket money monthly to their parent even they got work. I understand it is because the salary they got are spend on the daily expenses, car, petrol, dinner with friends and may even not enough for them to save money. But I always remember someone said that, in the old time, one man (a father) work so hard, get so little salary, but he also able to support the whole family: his wife and few daughter or son. Then why at the end, the few adults (the children) even can’t support for parent together. This kind of case always happens in our society nowadays. The world is developing, more people are getting rich, and their environment always is getting better but not worse. But why they still unable to support their parent who never enquire more. Maybe because “fast” is the tempo of our life now. We want to develop ourselves fast, work fast, earn money fast, so spend most of the time on working. However, we sometimes also need to “pause” it, and look around, then you only able to find back the original aim, dreams, and yourself. I heard an interesting story before. Here it is:

       One day, there is a famous financial planner went to a small island for vacation. Then he saw the island is full of rich natural sources and fish. Then he saw the fisherman only fishing by a small boat, then sell them at every morning. For the other time, the fisherman will stay at home and spend most of the time with his wife and children. The financial planner very curious and ask him,

“Why your working time is so short?”

Then the fisherman answer him,

“Because I want to treat my family nicely and spend most of the time with my family. My family is the most important in my life”

Then the financial planner tell him very confidently,

       “This island got a lot of fish. If you want, I can help you get a bank then you can get loan to buy big ship and get a lot of fish. From my experience, you definitely can get rich by selling the fish. Once you rich, you even can use the money you earn to buy more ships and recruit other people to work for you. Then you can have your own shipping team and export this good quality fish to oversea. Once you get to promote your fish to oversea, I can help you to establish board listed company. This can be done only in 10-20 years time. Then you can get a lot of money and enjoy your rest of the life beside the sea.”

And the fisherman laugh and looking at the financial planner and says,

       “I now already enjoy my life here with my family everyday. Why I need to go one round and spend most of the time for working. I know at the end I will get rich, but I even may get lost and have to be apart with my family and my love 1 for more than 10-20 to work for it.”

Then the financial planner is speechless.

This story is not asking you to be lazy and no need to work. It is to remind people that, you must always remember the original aim that you have made. Dun get lost in yourself. For example, your aim is to give your love 1 to have a happy life. So you work so hard to supply what she wants. But at the end, your love 1 is unhappy because you spend most of the time in working and you claim it is all because of her. You must understand that, to make 1 happy not = to give her money. Your aim is to give her happiness not to give her money!!! People always get lost at the end. (But I also not saying money is unimportant wor, it is just part of the task to fulfill the aim. hahahaha)

I dunno how many people out there get to understand what I am talking. But at least I understand lor.

That’s all.

Merry Christmas

"All i want for christmas is U…"

**Sun**